The four letter word that kills faster than death.
A cold evening “5.30pm”🌙🕡,
A cruel decision 😔😭.
Fourty-six days due.
Friday 18th May, 2018…
Oniwaya was the Venue 🏨
She was in and out within 30minutes.
The pain lingered the whole night; it was excruciating 😖 😖.
Amablesser by Dj Maphorisa & Mlindo the Vocalist 🎶 was her comfort song.
How was she going to continue life with the burden at heart
Google was her second name.
She sought closure so bad😿.
Her bible📖 was her best friend.
All that passed through her mind was what was going to happen next. All she felt was REGRET, PAIN, TEARS and FEAR. He wasn’t there for her. 20hrs+ travel time between them.
She bled buckets; 12hrs and counting. She had never been covered in RED before.
But who was she going to confide in?
She felt filthy, sinful…. words couldn’t describe.
Locked up in her thoughts, rejected and dejected 😩 😩.
But she was still in Love ❤️ .
“How could that be?”
She had gone through a lot and yet still craved his touch🤤 and presence. That didn’t stop her from locking him out of their lives tho.
A Lecturer and a Secondary School Teacher, they still had so much to attain.
She was stuck in-between…..
She was left to carry the whole burden.
90,000 was sure not a small amount to carry alone.
God was teaching her two lessons at the same time.
Her life had just begun. What was next? Too many unanswered questions…. She was both in an emotional and psychological dilemma.
Her sister(s) questioned her severally, trying to find out the issue. She was bent stuck on her thoughts(too ashamed to say). Locked in and lost in thoughts.
Finally, she has decided to accept faith, move on with Life and learn from her mistakes. To ask God for forgiveness and also seek coverage in him. Abstinence was her decision. Neglect was the aftermath of her Love with the late babies Dad.
She had finally grown.
She had experienced Pain😔.
She had learned her lesson. Experience was the worst teacher but with the lessons learnt, she was sure never to forget.
A pained heart